and were back

to the blogging. had a decent week. realized that i may or may not still be going through some little uhm.....adjustments within. monday totally screwed up my vibe so i didnt' take advantage of the week.....didnt grab it by the horns. i just kinda....let the horns run me through. lol.

i need a new idea. to draw off of. i dont know what. but boredom has set in. and i dont know if i should go looking for ideas. the decieved has officially been ABANDONED.

dont ask. its not even complicated.

were almost done with august folks.....oh how time goes by so fast...its amazing....if your having fun, that is. if your not, the time just seems to go by all the more slower so that you can bask in your own misery for THAT MUCH TIME. see how time works? it adjusts itself to your moods. lol. just kidding. time waits for no one. not even if your oprah.

it will run you over if your not ready. thats why im so afraid to space off. ye never know what you might miss ye kno? especially in school! gawd. ipay good attention. but sometimes i get the urge. and then people start talking to me and in my head i mumble "screw you" and have to come back to earth.

i gently set my things down as i come home. i came home to the tv blaring, everyone in the living room and a very excited mutt. the usual. i had my coffee, again. just cuz i want to. im not addicted. i look over my room to make sure everything's the way i left it when i left almost 10 hours ago. and i go eat my dinner. everyone loves chicken. comee back, take off my tags, my keys, my glasses, my jacket, search my pockets, take out everything from there, and settle on in.

i have another weeks worth of projects to do. homework for observational drawing is simple. i just have to draw things i see in front of me and draw little things big so my teacher can say "this is quite nice" thats the best anyone will hear from him. he'll never tell you its "perfect" or "very good" its "its quite nice" i kinda like that cuz you dont wanna think you've done too well because you never really stop learning. striving to be better, that is what im doing. this class isn't really helping. im just using techniques i discovered on my own all over again. basically a review of last year. not even learning anything in particular. i spent 4 hours of my life on monday drawing an arrangement of POPCORN.

POPCORN.

fortunately i ate the arrangement before the professor could come around to scrutinize my work and how good the proportions were.

scale is just like anxiety. you make something little something big. i had to fill the large piece of paper with details. all four sides of the paper drawn on. it wasn't hard. im used to doing that with pictures i draw from my phone. the screen is small. i nonconsciously make myself better. drawing small pictures on big paper. ive been doing it.

my dad thinks that im still like really inexperienced and that he needs to put his input on stuff im doing. "print it out in blak n white-" i know dad......i know.....

i shouldn't have coffee in the evening. i get headaches.

acting class is real fun. thheres really no other definition.

i registered for classes next quarter. got my little card that says "pass" i think its for this party thats gonna go on next next wednesday. i should get my new schedule at the end of this month i think. or by the end of september. hopefully.

apparently i get a shirt. for being one of the first 100 people to register for classes. im number 56. oh aren't i lucky.

i do believe im gonna make something out of the sketch comic.

which remains unnamed. i dont know what i should call it until i finish. i dont even know the story for this thing. but ill figure something out. to fit what's already taken place. because i dont feel like starting all over just because i made one little change. uggghhhh i dont feel like talking about my artwork anymore.


its got no meaning. headed in no direction. its a mess.

my head hurts. ugh.

well.....life isn't bad.